Seriously? You think you fucking know me?. My mom doesn't even know me well, I'm sure my ex was the only person that knew everything about me.
All you do is go off about shit, that is so unreasonable why the fuck am I holding on? Sometimes you just gotta calm yourself, cause honestly I think you're gonna be the reason why i'ma have the worst last four months in this school. Yeah? And he still fucking says night to me, even though we haven't talked in like the past frikken hour. Like be easy, stop being hard to get - Cause I can't have ya anyways. And you be telling me that "its always some how u make me not want to talk to u, when i wanna talk to you :/".. That's a total fucking lie, cause you know what? I know that you don't ever wanna talk to me, you're always tryna avoid me, like could you make it anymore obvious? I remember when you still had feelings for me, you'd message me all the time.. Not to mention you'd be the first one that would be messaging me, but time passed and you've changed but not for the better. I thought that we could've been friends, and when ____ was talking to you about a bestfriend thing on the ninth, yah that was me.. I actually remember special dates, but guess what those dates are no longer special. I thought you'd be the guy that would always be around, when I'm down, when I need someone, specifically in my words you were a 'down to ride for' guy. You were the only guy I'd usually tell my problems to, olord.. Wanna know why? Because I knew you were the only one who understood me so fucking well. And the reason you're pissed off at me whatsoever isn't the best reason, because I was just kidding. But honestly if you don't want to take that as a saying, that I've probably made obvious a lot of times then okay. I'm fine with that, schools almost over & I wanted us to bond and chill on the weekends, but you're never down with any of it. Yeah, I'm going to miss you like crazy when I'm in high school, but for now I wanna try to miss you less because missing you is hard.. You should try missing yourself, because when I miss you, I think about the times I've messed up, the thing that got in between our relationship and the small little things that broke us up, as being friends to strangers. I miss the old you, but I don't miss the old me. If I missed the old me, I'd be missing B, can't help to think I do miss him sometimes, before I go to bed. I think about how he also got in the way of our relationship, but that's okay. He knew me better, he taught me the good and the bad, he brought me to this road that I am at the moment, so thank him. Cause I seriously don't know how our little thing we had back in October would be like if it wasn't for him. Honestly I don't wanna yell at you or anything, but when you asked me why I ya'd you, is exactly what I said, you're never happy when I tell you the good things. That's when I figured, you no longer care. You do know that friends care for each other too right? Like seriously, have you seen the look on my face when you're being pushed around? Clearly you're so fucking important to me you deserved an essay. Obviously, I'm not that loyal to you. Even if you had a blog, you wouldn't be writing something like this towards me. Later
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