Everything reminds me of you, walking up College street earlier this afternoon made me sad.. I remember when we were walking there together on Saturday. I walked on your side.. It just feels different when I wake up knowing that, you're not mine. I still have our picture inside my locker, I think it still deserves to be there in some sort of way.. I also heard that I haven't been treating you well.. Well okay there, they dunnoe how you've been treating me then. I'm sorry I said "you're best without me" and shit, I just had to.. I don't really mind how we fight every week but still.. There's always sources to fix it up, but then again.. It has to do with the flirting thing. Not every girl can stand it you know.. I still have 12135485422854548 feelings for you, I still love you. I obviously know you still care or maybe not, 'cause all he asked for was a fan sign.. You seriously think that I'd use him to make you jealous.. What's the point? I would never do that. I still care too much, to be thinking about those waste things. Yay.. 15 more days, a week and one day not that far.. But I would still celebrate it myself, 'cause you're never gone.. Okay maybe you are, but you're always gonna be in my heart. Even though we've broken up, I don't wanna lose you.. Fully. I got so used to you, so much memories to look back at. I don't think any other girl would do the things I did, to you.. & I'm sure you know what I mean about things.. You should also know that everytime you leave me.. It's always so harsh, you act like I'm a train wreck.. Yeah, the one you spent a nice decent four months with. I thought giving you another chance was worth it, but it turns out that I feel like shit. I feel like I haven't seen the signs you've given me. The ones that are telling me to go, It was so obvious you didn't care about me anymore.. You didn't love me anymore. If you did, then I don't understand why there was so much fucking damn signs. Anyways, this first week of October hasn't been the best. It's like psychical pain, and emotional pain.. October = ouch.
xoxo
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