Sometimes .. I have this feeling, at some odd time. I ask myself, "does he still love me anymore?".. "does he still care?", and whatnot. It feels like you don't wanna take part in any kind of contact to me anymore. Your goodbyes, are just like everyone's goodbyes. I thought we had something, but I thought wrong. Before school started, you acted as if I was your everything, maybe I was. 'Cause it sure did feel like it, but now... You've changed. It's like you never want to see me again, and that's pretty harsh since we're together, and we hardly see each other. Did you get tired of me? Or something?.. I feel so forgotten. Even when I ask you to chill, you're always like "I'm busy" or "I'm doing this and that today" sometimes even, "____ asked me to chill with them already". Are you embarrassed that you're with me or something? Is it because I'm younger? Maybe I'm not in high school yet, but you don't have to forget me.. There's more to say, but I'm gonna update this later. I'm off to somewhere with mama. Okay, well hey I'm back. (7:02 PM.) Well since it's like you don't care about me anymore, just have fun in high school.. I'll be fine, well I hope that I will. You don't even return my calls, or reply to any of my texts.. Well rarely. It's funny how ____, Isn't my boyfriend and he said get well soon or what so ever.. In a way that made me happy. The way you said it was like.... Yeah, like you were in the middle of something and you just like typed it as fast as you can, so you could get rid of me. Yesterday.. I sent you 'I love you.' You didn't reply to that, but it's funny how when I sent that .. I got nothing back, and before I sent that I was sending other things.. And you replied. If I knew it would hurt me this much, I wouldn't take it back. I'm not gonna compare or whatever, it's just some thoughts .. I have.

I don't want to act like the way I am acting to you. It's not my fault, I wanna win you back. I can fully see you don't wanna talk to me anymore, did someone like take your heart or something? You told me you'd call, and your msn name says sleeping.. I've been so down lately, it's not even funny. It's like something you enjoy doing, hurting me. I mean yah I call you names, but that's like joking around and shit.. You're like taking it way too far. No more replies, much more lies.. You know how much I hate liars, why you gotta be one of them? I guess I'll just let the lies slide. You're making it waaaay too obvious that you don't want me anymore, I know it's hard but some people do last in relationships like these. I really do miss you, there's different type of misses.. I miss the way you used to be like.. It's like your new friends are way better to talk to. Maybe they are, but styll I'm your girlfriend. You're treating me as if I were nothing to you. Am I a stranger? I miss seeing you, you know it's hard not seeing you eveyday. You're on my mind day and night.. I don't wanna let you go, but it looks like you wanna let me go. When you said you missed me, I missed you too. I asked you if you were kidding, you said no. You wanted me back, and now you want me to go.. Make up your mind is it a yes or a no. Ya I know I'm such a good writer, but anyways. I just don't know how to get you back. Baby I really miss you, I really do. I called you because I wanted to hear your voice.. I missed it. I also had to talk to you about things and yeah. I think that's done, please stay for awhile now.. (L) (@11:47PM)

Anyways, going to talk about my day now.. Walked to school today, and had a spelling test and math test. I got 100% on my spelling test, which was good :) And I think I got a B or A on my math, it was pretty straight forward. After I finished my math test, I walked home. Had lunch, and ya. My mom asked me to go to the restaurant with her, and to my grandma's new place. I stayed at the restaurant for like two hours? Than left to my grandma's house, cleaned for like two more hours.. And left. I swear I saw someone that looked exactly like B, well it could've been him with his friends.. Ignoring my texts. Who knows, but ya I'm pretty sure I saw someone that looks like him. Probably him, but anyways.. I'm probably going to rest or something later.. 'Cause the headache didn't go away. I really wanna go shoe shopping tmr, get my af1's and gym shorts :) I also need, new hair dye from manic panic.. And a hair colour stripper. Anyways, I'm done here. Easy! xoxo